Monday, September 22, 2008
silly boy.
sometimes, i feel that you're so silly.
how can retribution be coming back to you when you found me?
i'm sorry that it caused you so much doubt when i mentioned that question.
i just wish to tell you, that he is the past. (like finally)
during the first week of our relationship, i thought of him sometimes.
but as now, our relationship proceeds into a stronger, deeper state
i no longer think of him, or even love him.
each moment when we're apart,
i think of the things i can do for you.
for our first month, for your birthday, after your ord,
ice skating, star gazing, horror movies
each thought, each moment makes me happy, fulfilled.
as i leave your side, i start to miss you all over again.
i count your off days, i worry about you all the time.
you're the first boy to make me feel so loved,
i feel contented even if we don't go to any fancy places,
eat expensive things.
i love you more and more every day,
i'm confident for the relationship to last.
i mentioned it because sometimes i doubt,
after reading your friendster.
do you think of moon sometimes?
do you still love her as much?
am i giving you the kind of love you got from her?
do you feel as happy and contented as you are with me?
in fact, i envy her sometimes.
i want to tell you that my wounds are healed completely.
you're God-sent. i don't think of him or love him anymore.
because i think of your well being everyday.
are you eating well, sleeping well, feeling well?
i hope whatever i say will make you understand
i'm prepared to live/spend my life with you.
everything i do, i do for you.
and you're part of me. not just indefinitely.
come to think of it, i'm so happy you posted this post.
because you allowed me to realise,
i've taken that corner of your heart which i thought i could never replace.
i thought i wasn't capable enough to replace the love you had in the past.
maybe i still haven't replaced all of it, but i will. someday:D
a movie life span means approximately 2 hours of time i can spend with you.
because a movie roughly takes about 2 hours to complete.
and you're so "JIAN". how could you read this secretly?:/
you're going to get it from me later! dumbdumb.
lastly, i'm going to scream at the top of my voice
I LOVE MY BOY. SEAN GOH SHIXIANG(:
bellebelle♥
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beth winks
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