Saturday, June 6, 2009
Saturday, June 06, 2009you want another exampl of how i thought for you?
what do i have on monday>?
do you remember
i have a test on monday 9am
what do i have tmr?
Jialin's brthday celebration.
i know how long this was dated before.
and knew f i didnt go you wouldnt either.
so what am doing now?
i'm rushing through my studies so tmr i can go with you.
and dont bother to change the date or tell them t's cancelled or we wont go.
cause it's already fxed.
dont want to spoil anyone's day
and i think i can finish it.
an i didnt even remnd you i had an exam on monday
but i shouldnt say you dont care.
because if you didnt you ouldnt have called me so many times on the phone just to see where was i
ytd, i was out with geraldine. i was buying muji stationery. i kept checking to make sure i didnt go over budget so that woul have enough left to buy your cake.
not that you want it s desperately, but because i promsed you i'll get you one.
i took out the pen i wanted to buy so could have just an extra 1.60 to buy your cake
yor cake was 5.80. i had 7 left. i was only 40 cents to buying my pen
i'm always thinking for you.this was your words sweetie.this is what i told you and i needed you to know.i selfish-ly tells you to let it all be mine, cause of what i wan.knowing what i wan, what my plans are, who i wanna be with, where i wanna be.i told you how much you meant to me. i told you i know how you function.i told you that every sec of my life, i could never ever stop thinking about you. how much i cared.i wan my future to be with you. i know i wan you as my wife.i know i'm not taking things slowly cause i wan you 'my wife' to be able to know i able to secure a future for you. for your parents dun believe in me.i know i'm insensible at times but i wan you to know i doesn't mean i dun love you.make me your, that what i say...you are still not sure how much place you stand in my heart.this is what you said, you once saw this message.this is what it say.if you love someone, let it go, if he comes back to you he's yours. if he doesn't he never was.you wish for me to be yours someday.if you let it go, it would never be true love.it cause when his a good for nothing, worthless guy. you loved and cared for him, that true love.you love him for the good and the bad.letting it go is as good as running away.so i need you to know i was never a good lover.
but i'll always love you.
in the coming years if i'm not able to let you know just how much you mean to me or let you trust me whole heartedly. i'll fail both as your hubby and your soul mate.
you made a vow that if somehow you wasn't able to have kids, you won't marry me.
so this is my vow...
if the time arrive and i am not completely yours. i'll let you know.
i'll leave you knowing a big piece of my heart will be removed...
dumbdumb♥
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beth winks
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