Sunday, July 12, 2009
suddenly,at 3 am in the morning.
me a woman you love. who thinks so much every day and night.
suddenly thought of the reasons why i'll leave you.
one day i might leave you, i would.
but when i do. it's when you didn't realized i found out you didnt love me anymore.
one day, when i leave you.
you might hate me, because i changed.
but i didn't, never did.
i made you hate me because i loved you.
so you wouldnt be in pain.
one day when i leave you,
i still love you.
but i couldnt stand the feeling of us becoming strangers everyday even if we spent together holding hands.
one day when i leave you, it's because i got so determined.
that i realized, maybe you'd be happier if i let you go.
one day when i leave you,
it's because i know.
someone who was better came along.
someone. who would make a greater impact in your life.
someone, i know. would never make you cry.
one day when i leave you,
it's when i tell you.
i dont love you anymore.
i dont miss you anymore.
it's when i cry in my bed at night and say.
i used to cry with someone holding me so tight.
when i typed this down.
my heart felt a pang of pain.
and the tears you told me so precious,
to never let it fall.
fell.
suddenly, i felt. like holding you tight.
i felt, like in the world.
there was only you and me.
we were sitting and watching a movie.
of our beautiful stories,
and painful memories.
then suddenly.
i was beside you.
you were sleeping soundly beside me.
so forlorn after your work.
as you held me tight. i tried so hard not to move.
we knew.
the both of us, were safe and sound.
then suddenly, we were downstairs.
mond mond and jagger were beside us.
i screamed. you shouted.
we almost ended.
that was the most painful night.
suddenly, we were in your house again.
having a heart to heart talk.
about everything under the sun.
we were speaking in low and soft voices.
but no matter. how low or soft.
it didnt matter. because we knew.
we heard everything what each other said.
because, we listened withour heart.
suddenly, the questions came to me.
our future. your future. my future.
how would our house be like?
where's our honeymoon location?
how would my wedding gown look like?
how many kids would we have?
would we have a seven seater car?
what would be your job? and what was mine?
suddenly, all the memories cames rushing into me.
couldnt stop the tears from falling.
couldnt stop the pain from going away.
you may think im silly.
i thought so too.
for thinking so much.
but when i stopped crying.
i was tired.
even though, i dont know how much time we have left.
my baby, i would try my very best to keep the relationship going.
i would try so hard.
because we know.
we have the same hearts.
under the same sky.
sharing the same future.
with the same memories.
bellebelle♥
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beth winks
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