Monday, September 21, 2009
all i ever needed was someone to show me comfort when i cried.
for him to hug me, kiss me. not to walk away.
not to treat my concern as sarcasm,
not to think the worse of me.
not to raise his voice, being all violent.
to never ever let me cry.
you used to give me a big hug, whenever i cried.
the kiss to blow away my kisses was instant.
to call me beautiful, to say i love you.
to tell me you're the best like how you did in the past.
to tell me a sincere sorry.
to ask me if you could go out with your friends,
instead of just informing me.
is it because you feel i'm overpowering you?
or what is this about?
why can't you just be like the past?
what did i do to make you become such a person?
i thought i gave so much more.
but in the end, everything changed.
no morning calls, i overslept.
no comfort even though i asked for it, i cried.
the harsh words, no more gentleness, my heart ached.
you said to let trust be natural.
now, you're doing actions to change it.
do you really love me?
if you do, how come now you wouldnt change for me?
how come you use harsh words to deal and respond to me, knowing it will hurt me more?
how come now, you won't even give me a kiss or a hug when i cry?
where were the words of appreciation?
where's the gentleness i got from the past?
how come now,you let me cry over and over again?
the tone you use on me, are you speaking to a citizen? am i a citizen?
how can i accept it?
even though we quarrelled more, i was happier in the past.
you said you'll change.
until now, i still haven't heard what i wanted to hear most.
is this a matter of pride?
haven't i given you enough?
haven't i thought enough for you?
haven't i apologise more?
love. has no pride.
requires no pride either.
it isn't a matter of giving in.
isn't the matter to see who calls who first
isn't the matter who apologises first.
isn't it wanting the best for your other half,
giving him/her what she wants?
doing what makes her happy?
then why, now even if i ask for it.
then why are you holding back?
everything disappeared.
i've got everything i wanted,
but nothing i needed.
has love faded?
did i not do enough?
i love you baby,
done everything to show you i love you.
do you?
i can't deny you give me surprises.
you think of me, you miss me.
what about the most important things?
please tell me if i said wrong,
please correct me if i did.
bellebelle♥
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beth winks
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